Today is September 8th. My husband and childhood best friend died two years ago today. I take alot of comfort in the fact that this day finds me in college. Jordan would be so happy. He really wanted me to finish my degree. Things change so fast. So...I might be weird for the next little bit. I have been thinking today about marriage. I see so many marriages that freak me out. Would it be better to just be happy and single forever? Thoughts?

-not sad really...just heavy hearted.

I think that small doses of daily sadness have inoculated me to the fact that he

 was real. I want to believe that he was real, and for a season, he was my truth and my reason.